Goddamn rat bastards, as soon as I get my hands free every single one of these dirt bags is going to be sorry they were ever born.  Starting with El Scummo over there, the one with the big mouth and the even fatter lip.  Courtesy of yours truly. At least I managed to get one good punch in before Shit-head and Company took me out.

I can’t believe I let those losers land me.  Crap, I must be getting soft in my old age, got water on the brain or something.  I don’t care if there were five of them, there’s no way these freakin’ amateurs should have got the drop on me.  If I’d been paying attention, thinking with my brain instead of my….

Yeah, gowan, say it, Jack.  Your dick, flyboy.  You left your brains in your shorts again.  Instead of keeping my mind on business where it should have been it was happily fixated on Daniel’s ass where it definitely had no business being.  Even if I wasn’t working.  Which I was.   I was ogling my archaeologist when I should have been watching the room.  Keeping an eye on the players, spotting the signs I should have seen and would have if I’d been looking there were some Mallik scum buckets crashing the party with intentions of making off with one of the guests of honour.

Which they did.  Oh lucky me.

Dammit, I can’t believe I let myself get that complacent.  This is frigging embarrassing.  I’ve been doing this how long?  Happy, laughing, smiling people, all of that can mean squat in a split second if someone inadvertently puts their foot in it or spits in the wrong dish or whatthefuckever.  There are no guarantees in this crazy business.  I should know that by now.  Do know that.  Yet, I let myself get caught with my pants down.  Metaphorically speaking.  No excuse, Jack, no excuse whatsoever.  You get sloppy, you get stupid, you get shit like this happening to you.  I guess I should consider myself lucky they settled for dropping a sack over my head and beating the crap out of me and didn’t kill me in the bargain.  Now that would have been really embarrassing.

I should get a big whack across the head for this one. Over and above the ones I’ve already gotten, that is.  Yeah, I damn well should.   I should have been paying attention.  Shouldn’t have let the happy smiles and the free booze and Daniel’s ass -  God, that ass… 

But I did; I let our success – Daniel’s success - go to my head, let – let wanting Daniel make me horny and stupid.

Dammit, I’ve got to do something about Daniel, either shit or get off the crapper, get my head examined, get the hell out of Dodge before I really screw up – something!  The next time I get sucked into the libidinous zone on company time someone could get killed.

Starting with me.

Actually, I’m probably being a tad melodramatic about the getting killed part. Yeah, sure, the current situation doesn’t look great, lured out, bonked on the head, trussed up like a frigging Christmas turkey, thrown on the back of a horse, taken for a wee joy ride and then tossed on this lovely cold, hard ground still hog-tied while these dingdongs are running around trying to find their asses or something, but other than possibly expiring from embarrassment I don’t think I’m in any danger of having anything more serious happening to me in my immediate future than more horse bouncing once these guys get it together and we start heading off again to wherever it is we’re supposed to be heading off to.  The chief rat boy over there might be slightly ticked off at me because I busted his nose but from what I've overheard – they need me alive.  They think they’re gonna use me to force the SGC to play footsie with their side and help them win this little war they’ve got going with our hosts and new allies – a war said new allies interestingly enough completely forgot to tell us about, mind you – so while the Dirt Bag gang here might rough me up a bit before they deliver me to their bosses they’re not actually allowed to do anything to me too permanent, damaging, disfiguring or fatal.

God, it’s nice to be wanted, isn’t it?

Okay, I seem to be catching a break here.  I’m not sure why we’ve stopped, but it looks like they’re setting up camp, building a fire, so I guess we’re staying put for a while.  I’m not exactly sure how long we were travelling; I was a bit groggy when they first threw me on the horse on account of being whacked upside the head once or twice so my time sense is a little – whacked - as well, but the constellation the natives call the Warrior is almost directly overhead so that means it's gotta be after midnight – no wait, look where the moon is, way later than that, crap, we've been traveling a fair chunk of the night.  It can't be long 'til dawn. 

Several hours since we left the palace, then.   Great.

Several hours on horseback.  Not exactly going full bore, true, but still, we've covered some ground and put some distance between us and our hosts.  My kids will have missed me by now; they'll be hot on the trail. The tracking at night thing, however, that could be a problem.  They’ll be looking, though, youbetcha, but whether they’ll be heading in the right direction or not, no way to be sure. 

Unless… let's not overlook the fact we are stopping, and it looks like we're staying put for a spell and wherever we are, it's not exactly my first choice for a place to take a breather if I knew for a fact a posse was on my tail.   We should be hotfooting it right back to their base and their other pals, but instead we're stopping – here.  Why?  This isn't a defensible position, there are only five of them, they have to know my kids and the SGC aren't exactly gonna take this lying down and my people will come after me.  Either they're dumber than dirt or…they know something I don't know making them pretty confident they don't have to concern themselves with any possible pursuit and for some reason they don't consider my kids anything they have to worry about.

Oh my, now that's a nasty thought.  And unfortunately becoming more and more unpleasantly plausible while I play dead here and pretend I'm still out so I can covertly watch these bozos.  They’re swaggering around like they haven't got a care in the world; they're mighty sure of themselves which says to me they definitely have some intel they're not sharing, like maybe they know the chances of anyone coming after us – and me – including my kids – maybe I shouldn't be holding my breath because it ain't gonna be happening any time soon.

Crap.  Let's hope I'm wrong on this one and the cavalry is on its way and these guys are simply too stupid to realise they should get their chicken safe behind enemy lines before they pull over and gloat about plucking him.

Yeah, I'd definitely prefer to vote for the too stupid to live option but in the meantime just for fun let’s assume I’m all on my own here.  No problem.  I might be tied up at the moment but that’s a small technicality I’m working on while I’m lying here pretending to be unconscious.  Which so far seems to be working because none of the bozos are paying attention to me.  Once the ropes are off the gloves are coming off too.  These mutts I can handle, but just in case, before anyone else who doesn't have my best interests at heart shows up and starts really stacking the deck against me I’d better get a move on with the Houdini routine.

Un huh, just like I thought, amateurs.  I don’t know who tied these knots but they shouldn’t quit their day job.  God, I’ve been kidnapped by a bunch of farm boys with delusions of thug-hood.  They’re making enough noise if my kids are anywhere within a ten mile radius, and I'm hopin' they are, they should be able to zero right in on us.  Why don’t you send up a flare while you’re at it?  Bozos!

Okay, getting somewhere here.  These ropes are starting to give.  Shouldn’t be long now.  I get my hands free and on that nice sturdy branch conveniently lying about three feet behind me and it’s bedtime for all these bonzos.  They’ve only got knives.  No problem.  Five to one?  Bring it on.  I’ve got to start earning my rep here and these yutzes have pissed me off enough I’m gonna totally enjoy cracking their freaking skulls.

That happy thought has barely finished firing my imagination when the back of my neck starts pricking; that itchy, scratchy feeling I get tells me I’ve got eyes on me.   There’s something out there in the forest watching us.  I stop working the ropes and freeze, opening my eyes a crack to see if I can see what I’m feeling.  Might as well have saved myself the effort.  It’s blacker than shit out there beyond what little light the fire is throwing out.  Nothing but an inky wall textured with the murky shapes of trees.  Trees, trees and more trees.  But somewhere in the midst of all that arboreal dubiousness – we got company.  Don’t have to be able to see ‘em to know they’re there.  Something else I know; whatever is out there – they’re dangerous.  My spidey sense is wailing big time. 

Trouble, we got more trouble on P3G yadda yadda.

Peachy.  Just what I need while I’m still temporarily inconvenienced is something with nasty pointy teeth slavering in the shadows eyeing me up for its next meal with nothing between me and being brunch but the amateurs of the hour who’ll probably scream like girls and run for their lives the second something big and scary pokes its head out of the bushes and moons ‘em.

Getting eaten will definitely ruin what’s left of my day so I’d better stop lying around here bleeding and get these damned – yes!  Houston, we have separation.  Now, all I have to –

“Kalkawt!  What are you doing?”

Crap!  Just my luck, rat boy’s picked this particular moment to cast an eye in my direction.  And if the scowl on his face and that big honking knife he’s pulling are anything to go by, he’s none too happy with what he’s seeing.  Which is me, about to work my damned hands free.  Oh my, what a revolting development this is.  I know I said before I didn’t think they’d kill me but the ugly mug coming toward me looks pissed enough to severely shake my faith in that particular premise and his knife ain’t exactly filling me with confidence for my future prospects either.

“Aw – kumquat yerself,” I spit at him as I roll on my back, preparing to defend myself the only way I can.  The ropes around my wrists are loose enough to slip out of, if I had the time, which I don’t and my feet – definitely still tied.  Won’t stop me from kicking his head in though, if he gets close enough to give me half a chance. 

He won’t be shivvin’ me if I have anything to say about it.

You’re damned lucky I don’t have a paper clip, you yutz, or you’d already be dead.

The shot and the scream happen on the heels of one another.  The former threat looming on my horizon is clapping his hands to what’s left of his head as he keels over like the so much dead meat he now so is and I’m whipping my head around in the direction of the muzzle flash sparking from the tree line I saw out of the corner of my eye.  I can't see anyone but that was a pistol shot.  9 mil.  No question. 

My kids are here!

I don’t even have time to shout ‘Woo hoo’ before the pistol barks again.  Another shot, flaring in the blackness, more screams then a gawd awful roar and I’m knocked out of my socks as Daniel tears out of the darkness towards us, firing and howling like he’s totally out of his frigging tree.

Daniel?  My God, what’s going on, here, not that I’m not glad to see you or anything but holy crap – he’s loping thisaway like a shrieking juggernaut of vengeance yowling and picking off farmboys with an ease that'd be giving Annie Oakley a serious case of pistol envy – Jesus he’s already popped three of my former playmates, making ‘em history before they even knew their number was up and he’s still coming, still screaming and taking a bead on the last gibbering wreck of what’s left of the dirt bag gang.

It’s all happening so fast and yet it's like I’m swimming through syrup, everything I’m seeing is so damned surreal.  Especially Daniel closing on me, pistol a 'blazing, drenched in drying blood I’m hoping isn’t his, foaming at the mouth and spitting hysterical gibberish. 

His eyes – oh my God, his eyes!

They’re wild, crazed and oh, so wrong, and they’re scaring the crap out of me because I’m suddenly getting a serious case of deja view and this is one particular memory I’d just as soon not be flashing back on.

Not now, not ever.

This isn’t the first time I’ve seen Daniel behind a gun aimed at my head and completely out of his, crap, I’ll never forget that insane, murderous stranger in that darkened storeroom though God knows I’ve tried and I’m just as unsure of what he’ll do now as I was for longer than I care to think about back then.  I honestly don't know if he even sees me; he's that far gone and downright frigging scary and what's worse, I haven't a clue if I’ll be able divert him from this slay ride he’s on and stop him before he kills every last soul in this camp – including me – prior to coming back to his senses.

Well, here’s hoping.

“Daniel!”  I desperately yell at him not even sure he’ll hear me he’s so deep in berserker mode.

Bad, this is really bad, he’s way worse than when he was hopped up on the sarcophagus.  I don’t know what’s got him flying higher than a kite now, but I’m scared nearly badly enough to be pissing myself at the sight of my peace-loving, wouldn’t normally hurt a fly, mild-mannered archaeologist back in homicidal junkie mode and…armed.  Especially as he’s already wasted three men right in front of me in the space of a few heartbeats without even blinking and if that blood all over him is anything to go by he kicked off his killing spree by offing the scum bag who’d gone to take a leak in the bushes.

Jesus, Daniel, there’d better be enough of you left in there that still likes me because I’ve got no special desire to be adding my creaky old carcass to the body count you’ve already racked up this evening.  And somehow, nuts or not, I don’t think that’s what you want either.  

I’m hopin’, anyway.

Not getting to him, he’s not hearing me, he’s gonna waste the last weasel, can’t let him, have to make him hear me, see me, stop.

“Danny!” I yell at him again. 

This time my yell yanks him like he’s on a chain and he shudders to a wrenching halt.  He’s stopped running, but he’s still shaking, his entire body twanging with adrenaline and the God only knows what else he’s got swimming around in his blood stream.  For a second he stands there, madly staring like he’s horribly confused, been knocked off his trolley midstream and he’s not quite sure where he is, what he is or what he’s supposed to be doing next.  Basically still a long way from normal but hopefully, well, hopefully now he's not baying for blood he'll be a little easier to handle.

Or not…

Then those mad blue eyes swing my way and in their icy, feral depths I see nothing but rampaging insanity.  Nothing else, no spark of recognition, no trace of the gentle, rational soul I know as Daniel Jackson.  In his place is the unreasoning, savage thing I sensed out there, not a man but a primal, murderous beast driven by homicidal rage and a huge whacking hunger to waste everything in sight.

As those bloodthirsty eyes rake over me I’m thinking drawing their focus has been a huge mistake we’re both going to regret if and when Daniel ever comes down from this.  Only thing is, he’s going to be the only one alive to do the regretting.

Oh God, oh crap, Daniel, Daniel – wherever the hell you’ve gone, I need you to come back.  Need you now!  Come on buddy, I know you’re in there.  You don’t want to do this; you don’t want to shoot Jack, that’s a nice archaeologist…

“Jack?”  Daniel suddenly bleats, a tragically plaintive sound as he blinks and shakes his head, looking damned lost and confused.  That’s my boy; I knew you were in there somewhere. 

Yeah, that’s right, come on down, Dannyboy.  Jack's here, and I'm gonna look after you.  Just – just trust me okay? 

He's standing there staring at me, breathing heavy, swaying back and forth.  He's looking, I think he's seeing, but whatever, I've got his attention and I’ve hooked a piece of him, now I’ll reel him in.  Easy and slow.

Come to poppa, Danny.

“Yeah, Danny, it’s me.  Take it easy buddy,” I gently coax while he continues to waver over me, swaying drunkenly and waving the gun around, blinking with bewilderment, his horrible confusion tearing at me. I want to help him in the worst way but I'm still tied up down here, and he's up there, skittish, uncertain and as like to bolt still as look at me.  Somewhere behind us the last erstwhile terrorist has finished pissing his pants and is crawling off into the forest, saving his ass while the getting is good but he's no longer my concern.  I can’t allow myself to be distracted from Daniel.  I’ve got him on the line, but only barely, I can’t risk him slipping the hook and boinging off into the whacko zone again, especially not as long as he’s still got the gun and I don't.

 We’re not out of the woods yet, and I’m not trying to be funny, here.

“You can stop now, Danny,” I smile at him.  “Put the gun down, you don’t need it now.  No more killing, okay?  Just – just put it down.”

“Jack?”  Daniel gulps again, his wild eyes sparking as they start to pool.  I don’t know if he’s understanding what I’m saying because he just stands there staring at me with those big, dumb, wounded eyes.  He's gasping and shaking, his mouth hanging open, his face an agony of bewilderment, the gun dangling from his hand.

“Put the gun down, Danny.” I tell him softly, holding his gaze.

I think I’m okay now.  He’s still nuts but he isn’t homicidal.  He’s looking, seeing, listening.  Maybe still not quite understanding yet, but I can tell while there's still a chance he might start yodelling and running amok through the shrubbery again, he’s not gonna shoot me.

But then, as I see the way he’s looking at me I realize the shooting me thing was never an option no matter how it appeared there for a bit.  He was never going to hurt me.  He never would – not any more now than he would have back then, even if he was off his nut both times.  I don’t know how he got in this condition and out here alone or why the heck Carter and Teal’c aren’t with him – one crisis at a time for crying out loud - but he didn’t come here to hurt me.  No – he came after me to rescue me, he –

“Jack!” he sobs again, the gun slipping from his shaking fingers and plummeting to the ground.  He bounds toward me, whipping his knife out and giving me another momentary fright until it dawns on me what he intends to do.  Through this entire surreal deal although I could have easily worked myself free I haven't, I’ve been sitting here like a stunned, trussed up dork and haven't made a move to get these ropes off.  Daniel is coming to my rescue, he’s meaning to cut me loose not cut me up.

What do you want from me, it’s been a pretty strange night!  And it’s not over yet.

Daniel drops to his knees beside me and the next thing I know I’m getting the crap hugged out of me.  I can’t do much more but let him as his arms squeeze the air out of my lungs and he babbles some gibberish in my ear.  He’s still not speaking in English and that worries me some, but although I can’t make out the words, there’s no mistaking the tone.

Yeah, I’m damned glad to see you too.  You have no idea.

Daniel’s still not letting go of me and yapping a blue foreign streak while he reaches around me for the ropes ‘round my wrists.  Between the two of us fumbling we get them off and then he turns to my ankles.  That’s when I finally get a good look at his knife and from the amount of gore caked on the blade not to mention decorating his BDUs telling a tale I'm betting is none too pretty.

Damn, Daniel, I hope you don’t remember any of this.  For your sake I hope whatever you’re high on kills every brain cell containing a memory of this night before you come back online again.

I know you don’t know which end is up right now and you’re certainly not responsible for what you just finished doing, but you’ll hardly let that stop you from working yourself over good when you are.  If once you’re over this you remember…

He cuts the cords around my ankles with one swift slice, flings the knife and then he’s grabbing me again, hugging me fiercely, his voice cracking and breaking over the unfamiliar syllables he’s sobbing into my neck.  Now my hands are free I can hug him back and I haul him in close, trying to calm him down.  He’s shaking like a jumping bean with the DTs, clutching at me like his life depends on hanging on and not letting go.

“Easy, Danny, take it easy,” I tell him, stroking his hair and rocking him.  My mind is racing while I’m keeping up the petting and the comforting patter.  I can’t risk him freaking on me again and bolting.  If he gets away from me God only knows what he’ll do and the way I’m feeling after being bounced around by the newly deceased scumbags I’d never catch him, especially in the dark.  And then there’s Carter and Teal’c – they’re so not here and there’s no way they would have let Daniel go screaming off into the blue in this kind of condition if they were in any shape to prevent it so what that could possibly mean…

Damn, he feels good and his hair smells so….

For God's sakes, Jack, get a grip!  The guy's so strung out he's shaking apart, we're out in the woods, Daniel's out of his head, might even be dying for all you know, you've got to get him back, get him some help and you've got two other team members unaccounted for this is not the time to be wasting time getting off or even thinking this way, I should let go now, get my ass in gear, get us both home.  Let go, Jack.  Still on the job, remember, and the job's not done yet.

Oh Daniel, don't wanna let go want – IwantIwantIwant…

Can't have, Jack.  Certainly not now, probably not ever. 

Forget about it.

“Come on, Daniel,” I softly urge him.   "Let’s go home now, buddy.”

“Isti!”  Daniel grunts belligerently, breaking free of my hold so vehemently he almost bowls me over.  I don’t have long to teeter ‘cause all of a sudden he’s grabbing my face, his fingers clenched and almost clawing around the back of my skull as he hauls me toward him, his feral eyes glinting madly in the darkness.

“Isti!” He growls again, his gaze searing straight into me and although I don’t get what he’s just said, what’s smoking in his eyes I have no trouble reading.

The pupils are wide and wild, dilated with desire, dripping with quite another hunger.  Not for blood, this time but the need they're screaming with is just as basic, primal and undeniable.

Oh my God…

Daniel is eating me alive with his hungry gaze and I’ve barely had time to adjust to this sudden change of appetite when his mouth is clamped to mine and he keeps right on following it, his weight sending me crashing to the ground with him leaping on top of me and pinning me flat with his considerable presence.

Considerably heavy and horny.

Oh my God…

I’m stunned, stupidly immobile and sprawled breathless and reeling beneath a hundred and eighty pounds of panting, heaving, thrusting Daniel packing a boner the size of a sledgehammer and the hottest mouth this side of a supernova.  While I may be shocked stupid this is happening I’m not sorry, although dammit, I know I should be.  Not because he’s kissing me and trying to drill me blind through both our drawers but because he’s doing it while – well, while once again he doesn’t know what the fuck he’s doing even as he's so fuckingly enthusiastically  - um - doing me.

Which isn’t right.  I shouldn’t be digging this, taking advantage of his hopped up state by letting him take advantage of me, I should be fighting him off, making him stop…stop…oh God…don’t stop, Daniel…

Fuck it.  I’m a bad, bad, terrible, awful man and a greedy, selfish bastard in the bargain; I know it.  I want him as much as he wants me, whatever part of his anatomy is in the driver’s seat at the moment and believe me, I know exactly what I’m doing.

Kissing him right back.  Clutching him, feeling him, clamping my hands on his hot, twitching ass helping him grind into me good, it’s so damned good, I don’t care if he’s crazy I’ve buried this itch so deep for so long and now, oh yeah, we’re scratching.  It hurts so good, such a blessed burn, we’re both grunting and rolling and kissing and tearing and I don’t care about anything else but his hot, hungry mouth clamped to mine while our mutual erections are having one incredible close encounter.  Again and again and….

I can feel the gates of paradise rising up to meet me when Daniel gives out this strangled groan and after a scary, god-awful shudder he flops down on top of me, limp and unresponsive.   I shake him, hard, but he’s out of it. 

Crap! 

Spooked by how ominously still he is I quickly roll him off me.  He slumps over to the ground, lifeless and still scarily inert and I’m scrambling up to check him out, cursing myself all the while for losing control not only of myself but the situation, for letting things get so out of hand and go so far, letting him get so worked up while he was still – goddamit if he’s had a stroke or blown a blood vessel or something –

Crap, he’s out.  Really out.  Freaking comatose. His skin is clammy and he feels too hot.  His breathing is shallow and his pulse is racing.  This is not good.  I’ve gotta get him back to base.  ASAP.

I grab for Daniel’s comm praying for whatever reason Carter and Teal’c have not been a part of the action so far they’re back online now.  Daniel needs help and so do I.

“Carter!”  I bark into the comm.  “Teal’c!  Report!”

I stop transmitting and wait.  Get nothing back. 

Crap.

Again, I’m trying not to think what that could mean as I jump to my feet and frantically look around.  Like I said before, one crisis at a time.  Please, please, please cut me a break here it’ll take me all frigging night to get Daniel back to the gate if I have to carry him –

Yes!

Seems one of my late abductors was a better farm boy than he was a terrorist.  Most of the horses have bolted, spooked, no doubt by the shots, but one of ‘em is still securely tethered, just over yonder. 

Thank you!

I’m in the process of hauling Daniel up off the ground so I can cart him over to the beastie when his comm squawks in my ear nearly giving me a heart attack.

Colonel O’Neill, DanielJackson!

Teal’c! 

I lay Daniel carefully back down on the ground and fumble with his comm again.  Dammit, my hands are shaking, my fingers stuttering all over the frigging place.  I finally manage to key the damned transmitter and then can barely get the words out my stupid throat is so tight.

“Teal’c!”  I gobble.  “Where the hell are you?”

It is good to hear your voice, O’Neill.   The big guy’s voice crackles into the still – oh my God, look at that, the frigging sun is starting to rise so I guess that would technically make it early morning - air. 

Major Carter and I are still in the palace.  I presume you are not.  DanielJackson –

“Here,” I cut him off.  “I’ve got him here with me.  Where that is, though, I’m not exactly sure.  I got extended an invitation to another party the Malliks were most insistent I not refuse, and they weren’t particularly interested in how I felt about the whole thing.  Daniel tracked us down and let’s just say they’re no longer a problem.  And you?  How you doin’ by the way?”

I’m not gonna ‘fess up to Teal’c I got suckered by the oldest trick in the book.  The Mallik equivalent of ‘phone call for Colonel O’Neill’.  The bastards got me out of the banquet by whispering in my ear Hammond had to talk to me ASAP at the gate and the second I stepped out of the hall – whammo.

I’m hoping his story is even better than mine.

The Mallik contingent which accosted you is also undoubtedly responsible for the events which have overtaken the banquet celebrants.

Oooh.  Don’t like the sound of that.  What I said before about a better story?  I take it back.

“Carter?”  I blurt out, apprehension twisting in my gut.

She is unharmed, O’Neill.  Teal’c’s com-distorted but still dammed impressive voice hastens to inform me.  As are our hosts.  However, she and the remainder of the Abandi remain in a deep sleep.  As I was also affected I surmise the ritual libation we were all obliged to partake of to bless the meal contained a soporific of sufficient potency to incapacitate even my symbiote for a time.

Well, whatever the hell it was – something that could knock Teal’c for a loop – God, no wonder Daniel’s been tripping!  But wait a minute, why only him, Teal’c said everyone else is sleeping it off.  Oh crap, maybe he got an overdose or something!

“The stuff was strong enough to get by Junior?  That could explain a lot.  Listen, Teal’c if there’s any of the doped drink still around bag it, tag it and get a message to Hammond.  We could have a serious problem on our hands when everyone wakes up.  Before he passed out Daniel was higher than a kite on something and I’m guessing it was whatever the Mallik spiked the drinks with.  I don’t know if everyone else who drank some is going to wake up out of their heads too, but in any case, the Doc will want a sample and I want some medics on site.   I’m on my way in with Daniel and you’d better tell Janet to get ready for him.  He's not looking good, here.” 

I break off, and look down at Daniel.  He’s hasn't moved or so much as twitched; he's lying at my feet sprawled and insensible, lightly panting, his skin pale and glistening with a luminous layer of sweat.  I run my finger carefully across his mouth, brushing away the moisture beading across his upper lip and his eyelids don’t even flicker.

God, I’ve got to quit flapping my lips and get him back.

“I’m bringing Daniel in now,” I grate, snatching my hand away from his face and forcing down every thought that could possibly distract me from what I have to do.  “Make sure they’re ready for him.  O’Neill out.”

I don’t wait for his confirmation.  I don’t need to.  Teal’c will take care of things on his end.  I’ll do what needs to be done on mine.

It’s really quiet in here now Daniel has screamed himself to sleep.

Finally.

I dig the heels of my hands into my burning eyes and squish my eyeballs until those little sparkly thingees start decorating the insides of my eyelids.  I waste a few seconds watching the interior fireworks and then I take my hands away, groping with eyes still closed until I find Daniel’s arm.  I don’t want to look at the straps my fingers brush against as they move down his arm so I don’t, keeping my eyes screwed shut while I rest my forehead on the bed, my fingers entwining with the ones they’ve finally discovered at the end of the arm they’ve been stroking down.

Been here too and it bites.  Restraints.  Fuck.  They’ve got Daniel trussed up and strapped down like he’s some kind of frigging animal.   Not that they had much choice, but it still bites.

As days go, this one has really sucked. By the time I’d figured out where the hell the palace was mostly by letting the horse do the driving Carter had already been carried through the gate and the medics were keeping an eye on the other folks still sleeping it off.  Daniel wasn’t any better but he didn’t seem to be any worse.  He was still unconscious, but that all changed the first time Fraiser tried to get some blood out of him.

If I’d been thinking he was nuts before…  God, the way he dove for Fraiser’s throat snarling and spitting – if Teal’c and I hadn’t been right there to hold him back – I don’t wanna think about it.

It took three of us to hold him down while they got the straps on.  Daniel was  - well, it was just really bad, and let’s leave it at that, shall we? Howling and snarling and whatever the hell he was jabbering – my name was in there a lot but the rest of it – Teal’c said it was Abydonian, sort of, but it mostly wasn't making any sense and neither was Daniel.  That's what the big guy claimed anyway, but the way my Jaffa brother was glaring at me while Daniel raved and screamed my name a lot in between the alleged incomprehensible Abydonian, I think it’s a damned good thing for both of us whatever Daniel was saying, he wasn’t saying it in English. 

And that Teal’c was lying his ass off.

Daniel has been pretty much howling his head off ever since.  That is until he finally passed out about an hour ago from sheer exhaustion.  There’s not much they can do for him but let the alien crap work its way out of his system.  Everyone else, Carter included, woke up after a ten hour forced nap a little hung over but otherwise okay but Daniel…

Whatever the Malliks slipped everyone for some reason it hit him like some kind of alien LSD.  His senses seem to be unnaturally heightened as well and any sort of sensory simulation, however minimal…

The constant overload is significantly contributing to his freak out factor.  Fraiser has no idea why the drug had a different effect on him than everyone else, maybe he’s allergic to one of the ingredients or it was some sort of bad reaction with the shots he takes for his allergies, could be frigging anything.  Bottom line, they don’t know.  It’ll work its way out of his system eventually and then he’ll be okay.  Himself again.

  At least, that’s what Janet is saying, but she can’t absolutely guarantee snarfing this stuff hasn't screwed up his brain for good meaning he'll be permanently mental.  Or something.  We won't know until after it clears and he wakes up.

After he wakes up.  Hopefully sane and himself again. 

I’ve been trying not to think about that.  Not that I don't want him to wake up, of course I do, it's just…because of what happened – out there – what never would have – never should have…

  I give Daniel’s hand a squeeze and lift my head up so I can look at him.  He’s so peaceful now, breathing deeply, looking deceptively serene, his cheeks slightly flushed, hair tousled and darkly damp against the pillow.

He’s so damned gorgeous it hurts.  It really does, you know.

Do you know what it feels like to look at someone who’s so…see them every day, work with them, fight with them, be practically in each other’s pockets day after day, year after year, laughing, bitching, fighting…

Yearning…

They’re right there, right in front of you and yet for as close as you are, constant companions, bosom buddies, best friends to the end there’s this line you can’t cross, don’t dare even think about stepping over, for oh, so many reasons none the least of which is you’re a guy.

And so is he.

Back there we more than crossed it, but it doesn’t count.  I knew what I wanted – I made a choice but Daniel…

I’ve got to put it all behind me forget – forget everything that happened out there.  I don’t know how, mind you, but I’ve got to.  It’s the only decent thing to do.  Daniel couldn’t possible have meant any of it, I mean, he’s no more – that way – that I’ve seen than he’s normally capable of killing without caring.  The rampage he went on, blowing away the Malliks without batting an eye, that was down to the stuff he was high on.

So was the rest of it.  All part of the same bad trip.  I have to put the whole – interlude - behind me.  Lock the recollection up tight in my box of repressed memories and walk away.  It won’t be happening again.  I have to forget – forget his taste and his smell and how fucking incredible his skin feels, the sounds he makes when you touch him, how he shivers when you bite his lip…

It can’t happen again.  It won’t.   I have to forget.

But – not yet.

My hand is shaky as I reach out and cup his